On the Edge

This Sunday I'll be renewing my Covenant with God at my church. The timing is very appropriate. The church turns 2 years old and I saw it develop from the beginning on the sidelines.
Two verses have influenced my decision to renew my Covenant.
:Psalm 116:14 I will fulfill my vows to the Lord in the presence of all his people.:
This was the most influential one. When I read that one, I knew it would have to happen. God clearly chose when.
:John 3:5-8 Jesus answered, "I tell you the truth, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless he is born of water and the Spirit. Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit. You should not be surprised at my saying, 'You must be born again. The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.'":
I want to be like the wind and I can be through the Spirit. Also, at this point in my life, I do not know where I'm going. I used to say, I'd go wherever the wind blew me. I know a breeze is coming, but I'm not sure how strong it will be.
I'm about to embark on a journey with Jesus. He is my guide and my strength. I may not like it, but He will sustain me.
I'm still adjusting to my perspective shift. It's a gradual change that continues to grow. While I've changed, I'm still a sinner. I'm not perfect and I will make mistakes. I don't feel the guilt I used to; I feel liberated. It's ok to make mistakes, to acknowledge them and fix them as best that can be done. Jesus is working to make me more like Him, but I'll never BE Him. I want Him to work through me, so I can serve those around me.
I've been more anxious as of late, but I know that it's not for me to worry about. Not all of it, at least! So I ponder tonight on 09-09-09.