"To be absorbed with Jesus required being forgetful of self, as she explained to her sisters: It is only when we realize our nothingness, our emptiness, that God can fill us with Himself. When we become full of God then we can give God to others, for from the fullness of the heart the mouth speaks."
This quote is framed by the sermon today in church. Stephen preached about discerning your calling and the 6 elements needed. The sermon reminded me of my conversation with Wilbert in Haiti. He asked about my calling. I had no response. I thought I had figured something out 3 weeks ago, but I'm not sure if there is a need for said calling. Stephen made it very clear that there has to be a need for our calling. So my plan is to read the Bible and fast and pray after I've spent some time in the Word. I do trust that God will reveal my calling when I'm able to hear it.
In preparation for that Mother Teresa has provided some powerful themes in my life. At the start of my summer travels, while sitting in JFK at 5:30 in the morning, I read how she described God speaking when our heart is silent. The theme for my summer travels was listening. I was far too distracted to listen in New York, but I was able to listen in Haiti. I heard God speak to me through the people I met. God delivered personal messages to me through the interpreters. I heard those messages, and I know God keeps His promises. I'm struggling to fill my heart with God. I'm distracted again, and it sickens me. I want to gouge out my thoughts, but I cannot. I yearn to forget myself. I've prayed to become emptied. A prayer that I was cautious to say. July 19 I was emptied, and it was a hard day. It was also one of the best days. I trust God to empty me and fill me with Himself. I am nothing but everything in Christ.
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